From the recording Find Myself
Lyrics
Damn I just died a little bit inside, will I live to see tonight?
I doubt it
It's getting worse with time, maybe I should say goodbye, or am I losing my mind?
I doubt it
It’s hard to understand when you’re heads stuck in the sand
But put yourself in my position you might need a helping hand
Never had no sanity when I was young and mother leaves
I would grab the kitchen knife to come and keep me company
Obsessed somethings after me, it was clutched down by my knee
Coiled like a spring to pounce and drive it in neck artery
Thank God no one startled me it would have been a bloody scene
And to describe the third degree all I could say is I was scared
Self-diagnosis cause that’s probably the closest
That I'll get as answers to these questions that I’m probing
"Don't tell me you're crazy get the fuck out of the surgery
There is nothing wrong now be a big boy, not a phoney"
That doctor can blow me man she doesn’t fucking know me
Suicidal thoughts have got my fogged brain exploring
But I keep on going I don't want to be dethroned
Where am I headed?
Destination, unknown
Damn I just died a little bit inside, will I live to see tonight?
I doubt it
It's getting worse with time, maybe I should say goodbye, or am I losing my mind?
I doubt it
Maybe I'm delusional and losing it as usual
No such thing as cruise control when you act like a cruise missile
A mad man 'til I die, not afraid to share my pain
On the outside of your brain and the inside of your mind
If I don’t start sleeping there's a chance you might start seeing
An evil side to this crazed human being
See my brain is fleeing it goes way faster than racing
But I think my soul is starting to lose patience
To many I'm ok and to others I'm estranged
But people shouldn’t judge when they haven't felt the pain
No room for leeway, no time for child’s play
If you question my actions you'll be put in your place
People calling names or saying I am insane
The reflection in the mirror shows the one who should feel shame
But fuck it keep on treading down the path that you are paving
I've got one thing on my mind, a legacy to maintain
Damn I just died a little bit inside, will I live to see tonight?
I doubt it
It's getting worse with time, maybe I should say goodbye, or am I losing my mind?
I doubt it